20 feet tall

I have officially fallen back in love with Erykah Badu. It has been too long since I spent a whole day listening to her music and now I cannot stop. My favorite is 20 feet tall. I feel like I am getting back onto my own feet right now. I felt boxed in and closed off from the rest of the world. Then once I made my way to my feet I realized I am taller then the box I've been suffering in. It is all so beautiful.

I have also been painting and falling more and more in love with my man. It is funny that in January I was laughing at folks in the dreaded LTR (long term relationship); now I am headed there at full speed. I think he is my Yin and I can actually rant to him (and boy do I rant), and he is just there for me a listening. I don't feel any judgement from him. He loves me as I am and that includes my ranting and differing opinions. He is so sweet to me and I don't, and have never, had someone else in my life that compares. (I am not saying that he is perfect because lets be real he soo isn't, but I love him for who he is.) He has helped me tremendously without even knowing.

I guess I am done gushing for now. :-p I am on spring break and I have not gone anyplace. I am still a little antsy to get out and do something but I am content with how I have been spending my time. I wish the rest o my life could feel just like this.

Simple, Beautiful, Joyous, and Easy

Oh lest I forget, I have a brand new niece. She is beautiful although she does not smile a lot. (Also, since she is red skinned and looks more native then anyone else in the family I have decided to call her "Smiles at No One". hehehe I am so clever.) She was so tiny and it got my thinking thoughts like "when I have children they will..." and wondering how big my first child will be when it is born. I think I am becoming maternal and I am totally unsure of how I feel about it. The thought of me having a raising children does not seem as outlandish as it has for the last fourteen year of my life. And to think I am only six months away from being able to get my tubes tied without having any children.

Heavy sigh! I guess this part is not so simple or easy, but it is life and I have some big decisions to make.

Oh and I have some weddings to go to this summer. I am excited, but that makes me think about my own life and what I am doing with it.

Question: When the fuck did I become an adult? I don't remember consenting to all of this. :-)