Merry Moving Forward

So... I don't really celebrate Christmas or anything really but I was awake and had time on my hands so I figured why not blog right? Right.

So this whole starting things anew has been nothing short of life changing. I am having more fun now (these last few weeks), then I have had for the whole of 2009. That to me is a very sad realization. It is weird when you think things are going along fine and then they change and you realize how horrible they have really been. I have decided to let the past drop and I will focus my energy on the process of moving forward. It is not that I will pretend the past did not exist, but the future is a completely different beast all together. It should be dealt with as such.

Mini who, I realized how to change the world. I change and the world will change because of it. No it won't stop world hunger, but it will satiate my soul.

Now and Forever

I am a dread head now. I am sure they are not fully locked and I know that I should not call them dreads but I took the plunge. I was on an emotional roller coaster deciding that I wanted them because the minute I said yes my next thought was no. I finally just did them early since my plan was to do them today and it is already four days after I started and three days after I finished. I was getting anxious and I knew if I waited I never would have done them. I have been going back and forth between loving them and hating them. I know that once they are fully locked I will have more fun with them and once they get more length on them. I am afraid that they might shrink and that I will hate them but that is part of the reason that I did them in the winter o I can wear hats all day and no one will question me. Then by March's end they should look good and I won't feel obligated to wear a hat everyday.

It was kind of hard to keep it secret from my students since they for some reason love to take my hat off all day long but I did it successfully.

I am also supposed to be getting tattooed on Wednesday, but the artist is trying to give me Shiva as bonequisha instead of Shiva as Nataraja. He told me he just gave her some hips and a large bust with sexy eyes. What the fuck kind of shit is that, I wanted so badly to say but instead I told him I would look at it on Tuesday. I am completely unsure what about me said I wanted a modern Shiva instead of the one in the picture but hopefully we can get things cleared out on Tuesday if not I am going back to BTP and making an appointment with the girl who works there since her work looks really good. I took this appt. since it was close and I will get a free tat with my purchase.

Mini Who
New Me... Check

Today is the Day

lol It is funny because that is the name of my novel. Any ways I have decided to overhaul my life. I have been saturated in other peoples wants and expectations for too long. I am striking out and doing my own thing from now on. No, I don't mean being a jack ass or something similar I just want to be me full time. I find myself squeezing into boxes for the sake of other people and convincing myself that it is what is best for me because someone else believes it is best for me. I have resigned. I am no longer willing to pretend. I am no longer willing to be a sheep. My life has changed starting today.

It worked

I did some reading today and some writing yesterday and I even managed to get around to doing some quick sketches. I am so pleased with myself.

So...

I was not completely unproductive during my snow day. I had a whole lot of fun but I did not actually create anything. Oddly enough I am writing this blog instead of doing any "real" writing. I guess this is sort of journaling but I am also sure there are many things I would never post here but would make it into a regular journal entry.

His eyes scanned my soul
I felt them inside of me
searching
I wonder what they found

His smile lights up my day
I play the scene over and over in my head
searching
I wonder if it is real

He adores me
for now

anyway

Snow Day

This is the first snow day of the year, and so I decided to begin a blog. I am hoping this will get me back into writing poetry and posting (and hopefully creating) my art. I am a 26 year old writer/ hooper (hula that is)/painter/ artist/ wanna be dancer/ contortionist. Currently I make a living as a teacher and that leaves me little time for much else. I work at Harriet Tubman Free School you can check it out at tubmanschool.org. I am a little crazy and eccentric I would not have my life any other way. Being "normal" is non existent and being average is hella overrated.